Thursday, December 25, 2014

Notes While Reading "War is a Force That Gives Us Meaning"


It's Christmas. My son has given me a copy of Chris Hedges' book. A book whose premise is that, as a species, we don't sincerely desire peace on earth. That's boring.

In fact, Hedges cites a calculation by the historian Will Durant ". . . that there have only been twenty-nine years in all of human history during which a war was not underway somewhere." While I cannot cite an academic to verify it, I would wager that almost every human who has lived and not experienced war is thankful to have been spared.

Though, as Hedges contends, most of us are susceptible to the allure of the concept of war as a unifying mission. What I don't see explicitly identified in the opening Introduction is the idea that our susceptibility arises from the basic desire to belong in order to defend ourselves. We are vulnerable individual beings who find our odds of survival enhanced through banding together. Once bound together, we view other groups as threats to our group . . . and they are.

However, it's usually a very few people within any group that instigate fear and action (e.g. war) in response to that threat. These individuals have a myriad of reasons for doing so,  from ego satisfaction, economic gratification, or simply garden variety sociopathic lunacy. Hedges identifies this fact in his opening chapter, when he observes that our era's wars " . . . are manufactured . . . (and) run by gangsters, who rise up from the bottom of their own societies and terrorize all, including those they purport to protect."

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Sixfold Poems


I was fortunate to have my group of four poems included in the Fall issue of a new publication called Sixfold. It's a cool concept . . . the writers who submit vote on and determine what will be published.

For what it's worth, I also recorded myself reading the poems . . . maybe it will be interesting to listen to these a few decades down the line, to recall how I sounded at this point in the journey.

Here they are:

Surliness in the Green Mountains

Meditation Waiting for the Orange Line

Blowing the Third Eye

Under the Influence


Sunday, September 29, 2013

Russia Blog

I feel the need to blog more . . . there are so many things that I'm forgetting!

I promise myself to start soon, but for now I want to link to my Russia blog from last December.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

To Russia With Anticipation

So, having typed a couple paragraphs, what I'd written vanished. Why? Cosmic editing of fuzzy writing is the only plausible explanation. Though, this is in keeping with how preparations for this trip have unfolded. Akin to the vanishing airline reservation specifically. I had my confirmation . . . I even had a seat assignment on Delta . . . and then when I called Alitalia to request a seat assignment, I suddenly didn't have a ticket, nor a reservation. Thank you Alitalia for not having online seat request capability. Otherwise, I'd be showing up at Logan this morning with my bags and a smile, and no chance of getting on a flight to Moscow.

As it turns out, I'm now on a train to NY, to get to JFK, to get on a flight to Moscow. It all worked out. As long as this unexpected loss of power and forward movement in New London proves temporary.

Appropriately, it was snowing this morning as I walked over to Back Bay Station. Just enough to whiten the ground, but I appreciated the gesture. It appears that the weather has finally turned wintery in Yaroslavl, too. This makes me happy. It wouldn't have been quite the genuine winter welcome I was hoping for without snow around.

My 46 Pimsleur Russian lessons now seem wholly inadequate. I just now got to, "How's the weather?" And, I had to look up snow on my own: снег. Pronounced: Snerg. You can see in this small example one of the principal challenges in trying to tackle Russian as a second language. The alphabet is on one hand familiar, but full of amusing misdirections. с = s; н = n; г = g. And, then there are the extra letters that are more hieroglyphic in nature: жфю. I am glad that Cross Cultural Solutions will have a translator nearby at all times!

Thinking of all I don't know how to say, and even more how limited my ability to comprehend anything said in Russian, I feel compelled to return to Lesson 1 and try to reinforce the most basic and essential components: "Do you speak English?" "I don't understand." "Please help me."



Saturday, January 21, 2012

Adding to the Really Baffling . . . Let's Mutate Bird Flu to Make it Airborne


The logic apparently is that by manipulating H5N1 to become transmissible between ferrets (which are, appropriately, nature's closest stand-in biologically for human scientists), we can ferret out (too irresistible to not have a little pun with these creatures while we kill them) how the bird flu virus might mutate in the non-laborotory world.

Not that we can do anything about the resulting pandemic should it occur. Though presumably we could establish a vaccine protocol that might be effective in impeding the virus's ability to infect.

So, developing a way to make H5N1 transmissible to and between humans will enhance our ability to warn anyone who hasn't already seen the videos of folks succumbing to bird flu that a killer virus is loose?

Of course, now we'll never know if we loosed the killer virus on ourselves or if it was a result of nature doing what nature does.

But at least we can be certain that many ferrets are going to suffer and die, and how can one argue that this is not a good thing?


Monday, January 16, 2012

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Industrial Beauty (or Two Pilgrims Watching the Sun Set)



Physicists and Theologians Unite!


Here's an interesting update on the latest crisis facing physicists. To make sense of the fact that our particular universe is attuned to the precise conditions that have made life (as we perceive it) possible, an increasing number of physicists are guessing that we must be citizens of one of a countless number of universes.

If the number of potential universes is infinite, then one of them would have the conditions we find ourselves existing within. That we most likely can never test this hypothesis is a concern, of course. We're being asked to take it on faith that this must be the logical explanation for why things are as they are . . . and why, consequently, we are.

God (or whatever) works in mysterious ways!

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Momentary Celebrity (Sort Of)


Ambushed by the local Fox News station, I stammer through a series of probing questions about the proposed hike in fares to ride the subway and/or bus in Boston. Oddly, I almost always walk to and from work . . . partly because I am cheap, but mostly so that I get some exercise. And, besides, I am lucky that my "commute" entails walking through Boston's Public Garden and across the Common, past the State House on Beacon Hill, and down past King's Chapel (a diminutive, stone edifice from the 18th century), before arriving at the late 20th century granite, steel, marble, and glass high-rise where I do what I do to pass the days and make a living.

MBTA riders face fare hikes as high as 43 percent: MyFoxBOSTON.com


Saturday, December 18, 2010

Wisdom for Writers


"A writer is someone for whom writing is more difficult than it is for other people."

Thomas Mann

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Mark Twain Commentary on Idiots and Congress


100 years after his death, Twain remains a relevant commentator on our current state of affairs:

"Suppose you were an idiot. And suppose you were a member of Congress. But I repeat myself."

Shelby Foote's Advice to Writers (Paris Review Interview 1999)


INTERVIEWER

What kind of advice would you give young writers?

FOOTE

To read, and above all to reread. When you read, you get the great pleasure of discovering what happened. When you reread, you get the great pleasure of knowing where the author’s going and seeing how he goes about getting there—and that’s learning creative writing. I would tell a young writer that. Of course I would tell him: work, work, work, sit at that desk and sweat. You don’t have to have a plot, you don’t have to have anything. Describe someone crossing a room, and try to do it in a way that won’t perish. Put it down on paper. Keep at it. Then when you finally figure out how to handle words pretty well, try to tell a story. It won’t be worth a damn; you’ll have to tear it up and throw it away. But then try to do it again, do it again, and then keep doing it, until you can do it. You may never be able to do it. That’s the gamble. You not only may not be able to make a living, you may not be able to do it at all. But that’s what you put on the line. Every artist has that. He doesn’t deserve a whole lot of credit for it. He didn’t choose it. It was visited upon him. Somebody asks, When did you decide you wanted to be a writer? I never decided I wanted to be a writer. I simply woke up a writer one morning.


Monday, November 15, 2010

What in the Sun Causes Radioactive Decay Fluctuations?


From an article on EurekAlert:


The strange case of solar flares and radioactive elements

Intrigue at the speed of light (almost)

But there's one rather large question left unanswered. No one knows how neutrinos could interact with radioactive materials to change their rate of decay.

"It doesn't make sense according to conventional ideas," Fischbach said. Jenkins whimsically added, "What we're suggesting is that something that doesn't really interact with anything is changing something that can't be changed."

"It's an effect that no one yet understands," agreed Sturrock. "Theorists are starting to say, 'What's going on?' But that's what the evidence points to. It's a challenge for the physicists and a challenge for the solar people too."

If the mystery particle is not a neutrino, "It would have to be something we don't know about, an unknown particle that is also emitted by the sun and has this effect, and that would be even more remarkable," Sturrock said.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Hello Beta



How many strolls along the surf line have I taken in my life? Hundreds and hundreds. And how many shipwrecks have I come upon? None . . . until this Labor Day . . . when the remains of the British schooner Beta appeared in the waves. The ship foundered in April 1886, while en route to Boston from Halifax, Nova Scotia. Three lives were lost, including two young sisters, ages 8 months and 3 years, who "were torn by the sea from the arms of their mother and drowned."




Monday, September 21, 2009

Golf Gods



Last summer, after too long a hiatus, I began regularly tormenting myself on the golf course again. The only good thing about my game was the company I kept while watching my ball fly off course (literally, sometimes): two actuaries and my son. We've had a lot of fun chasing par over the past two summers. Unfortunately, good things do apparently have to end. Rob (one of my favorite actuaries of all time!) is moving to Atlanta this fall. The game will simply not be the same without him. The group portrait above was taken at the conclusion of our final round together: September 5, 2009. A bittersweet day indeed. Sanjay, Drew, and I will miss you, man.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Observations on the Parade Outside the BPL



Sitting on the granite steps outside the Boston Public Library, after being evicted from the blessedly air conditioned Bates Reading Room at 5 PM, I am appreciative of the slight breeze and the parade of people passing through Copley Square this late afternoon . . . the intricacy of detail on Trinity Church across the way.

Apocalypse seems quite remote . . . though a woman with an African accent and a baby in a stroller continues to wander back and forth in front of me proclaiming that God loves and that Christ can provide a better night's sleep and safety upon waking. It's easy to fabricate some horrific past for this woman, in a country where death and torment are more overtly present.

It's easier yet to observe the reactions of those who pass her as she makes her rounds. I particularly appreciated the neanderthal dude who turned and yelled at her, "What the hell are you yelling about?" . . . and, in doing so, lost control of the unlit cigarette dangling from his yap. It fell directly and irretrievably into a crevice between the walkway's granite slabs. God works in humorous ways at times!

Just now, a little fellow with the most gigantic curly mane and a white button-up shirt and a terrific smile has found the statue near where I am sitting fascinating and worth the effort to climb the steps to be near. The exuberant inquisitiveness of childhood is infectious. He really likes this statue! I have no idea what he is saying as he comments on this public work of art, but he is enthusiastic in his assessment.

So many iterations of our human carnival available for perusing. I've been working on revising my long poem "These Days Appear Particular" this afternoon, and sitting here just makes it clearer how particular each of our experiences truly is . . . familiar, similar, yet particular in its details. Billions of story lines all wavering and weaving their way on this small blue marble.


Saturday, August 15, 2009

What the Brain Can Do


It's always interesting when our assumptions about what (and how) we understand are challenged. I came across the book "My Stroke of Insight" in an airport bookstore recently. Imagine being a brain scientist and getting to experience your brain's reaction to a severe stroke. Imagine if the stroke damaged the side of your brain with which you do all of your thinking and understanding of yourself and the world. Imagine having only the side of the brain that can allow you to connect with and perceive yourself as an energetic being intertwined with the universe and its teeming life force still functioning. This happened to Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor, and she's never been the same since . . . but in an unexpectedly positive way.



Monday, August 10, 2009

Instant Expert: Quantum World - New Scientist


I do believe that one of the things about the quantum that fascinates is that it represents so many possibilities. For the imaginative, inquisitive person this is not unlike a cosmic kaleidoscope on the one hand . . . any number of combinations could delight. But the quantum goes further, into the undefinable. And, for the mathematically incompetent (like me), it allows for interpreting and theorizing from a foundation of nothing more substantive than one's imagination. How cool is that? 

Instant Expert: Quantum World - physics-math - 04 September 2006 - New Scientist

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Friday, June 5, 2009

Exit the King




I'm not a fan of traveling for business (at least domestically). I've done it for too long, and any novelty long ago vanished. The two exceptions to this rule are New York and San Francisco. Both are still quasi-wonderlands to me. I try to plan alone time whenever I visit either. Time for exploring, wandering, observing.

When I stay in Midtown, I like to get to a play. I am a novice theater aficionado, but I enthusiastically seek to be transported. I got on a lucky bus last night, when I went to see Geoffrey Rush in his translation/interpretation of Eugene Ionesco's "Exit the King" on Broadway.

I knew nothing about Ionesco (beyond recognizing his name) or this particular piece. I was excited to see the stars (Rush, Susan Sarandon, Lauren Ambrose) perform in a well-reviewed play, and to get away from the business-of-business that had dominated my day.

And then the lights went down . . . and poetry began to resonate all the way to the last row of the Barrymore Theater where I was seated. I was engaged from the first lines to the good king's inevitable death, two-plus hours later.

The play considers the narcissism which sustains all humans and particularizes it to a sovereign who would see every fellow human gone, if it meant he could survive. Ionesco was a master of the theater of the absurd, according to the biographical sketch in my Playbill.

The absurd in this work is the absurdity with which we squander life and covet it, unrelentingly, when we sense its impending departure. And it's about so much more.

"Exit the King" has all the great attributes that I admire in effective poems. The language is layered, original . . . the words are somehow cajoled into performing acts of reflection and illumination that spark the audience's consciousness toward some new vantage point.

The world may not seem much clearer from where this play takes one, but it surely seems more multi-faceted and magnificent to behold . . . like diamonds scattered across a field, with the sun burning through the overcast of the quotidian.